OKay, not that anybody actually reads this crap I post, but what the hell? Why not? Not like I have anything interesting going on in my life to drag me away!
Okay, why do I keep setting myself up for failure? Of course, I'm talking about falling in love with someone who wants nothing more than to be friends. I really hate it. Don't misunderstand, I'm not angry with this girl, but she is amazing.
She is funny, incredibly smart, and extermely gorgeous to boot. She makes me feel so good when we talk. She is always making me smile and laugh. She makes me feel important, like the stuff I say is actually important. Even when I talk about stupid dreams about owning a Delorean because I saw one in a car lot down here in Florida, right around the corner from my house for $15,900. How cool is that?! I mean, yeah, it's something simple.
But, I tell my mother about it and she justs smirks and rolls her eyes. (Of course, she denies rolling her eyes.) I tell my father and he makes a joke about how I can get a car loan: "There's plenty of money in the bank you can get a hold of for a loan, just hand 'em a note saying: This is a stick-up..." Ha, Ha, Ha... thanks, Dad!
And, of course, my family finds it necessary to talk logically about finances, and how could I possibly afford it with my credit... blah, blah, blah.... THAT IS NOT THE DAMN POINT! It's a dream. For God's sake let me live the fantasy for a little bit before you shoot it full of holes!
Then, of course, I tell this girl I am feeling deep emotions for, and she gets it!
(Insert Hallelujah Chorus here)
She is happy for me. She shows genuine interest. How can I be so close to someone who could make me feel so special and not be able to be with her and show how much I feel for her. DAMMIT!!
I just want to hold her in my arms and let her feel my heart beating for her. Feel her warm body next to mine. Not even for sexual reasons, just to be close to her.
Her eyes, her smile, her laugh, her ability to give of herself so freely with her heart. She is a one of a kind.
I'll just say it now, because she'll probably never see this anyway: I LOVE YOU, KERI! For who you are, the person I can see you becoming, and for the way I feel just listening to the sound of your sweet, lilting voice when we talk. Even when you don't speak, your beautiful, loving eyes speak volumes. Your breath gives me life. I am forever transformed for just having known you.
Okay, why do I keep setting myself up for failure? Of course, I'm talking about falling in love with someone who wants nothing more than to be friends. I really hate it. Don't misunderstand, I'm not angry with this girl, but she is amazing.
She is funny, incredibly smart, and extermely gorgeous to boot. She makes me feel so good when we talk. She is always making me smile and laugh. She makes me feel important, like the stuff I say is actually important. Even when I talk about stupid dreams about owning a Delorean because I saw one in a car lot down here in Florida, right around the corner from my house for $15,900. How cool is that?! I mean, yeah, it's something simple.
But, I tell my mother about it and she justs smirks and rolls her eyes. (Of course, she denies rolling her eyes.) I tell my father and he makes a joke about how I can get a car loan: "There's plenty of money in the bank you can get a hold of for a loan, just hand 'em a note saying: This is a stick-up..." Ha, Ha, Ha... thanks, Dad!
And, of course, my family finds it necessary to talk logically about finances, and how could I possibly afford it with my credit... blah, blah, blah.... THAT IS NOT THE DAMN POINT! It's a dream. For God's sake let me live the fantasy for a little bit before you shoot it full of holes!
Then, of course, I tell this girl I am feeling deep emotions for, and she gets it!
(Insert Hallelujah Chorus here)
She is happy for me. She shows genuine interest. How can I be so close to someone who could make me feel so special and not be able to be with her and show how much I feel for her. DAMMIT!!
I just want to hold her in my arms and let her feel my heart beating for her. Feel her warm body next to mine. Not even for sexual reasons, just to be close to her.
Her eyes, her smile, her laugh, her ability to give of herself so freely with her heart. She is a one of a kind.
I'll just say it now, because she'll probably never see this anyway: I LOVE YOU, KERI! For who you are, the person I can see you becoming, and for the way I feel just listening to the sound of your sweet, lilting voice when we talk. Even when you don't speak, your beautiful, loving eyes speak volumes. Your breath gives me life. I am forever transformed for just having known you.
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